Dear You,

Maybe it wasnt the time.
Just, maybe it wasnt a right time anymore to say such a thing.
But still, there is a wish from me that is

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY.

From Zai

.:shuenyee:.

Dear You.

Well, it might not be appropriate to do so, but im just suppress what i feel.
From the starting, i think its my brain problem, for having sucha idiotic decision.
Well, it getting more and more wrong after that.
Because i saw changes, i sense changes and it really makes me upset, seriously. *um, i think?*
You know what?
I hate sudden changes, i hate surprise.

I dont like the awkward atmosphere, i really really do mean so.
When the argument stopped, silences begun. When the silence begun, it separated everything in a very clear way.
And so, when the awkward situation started, everything ruin in a blink of an eye.

I wanna voice out, but i gulped it back.
Because there is useless.
It is so damn frustrating to say that everything are useless.
I couldn't make it right at all. =/

Thought of several reasons to be optimistic,
But there are millions of reasons to be pessimistic.
And so, it turns to be pessimistic again.=.=

It is soo damn frustrating T.T

Not wanting to seein you again.
But it always has reverse effect. =.=

So so frustrating. =/


Well, *exhale,calm down*

Just pretend, then we never were.


.:shuenyee:.

减法

Word of the day: you're man.
||I’m your man I’m your man geudaeyeo ttaradatta oneuldo
geudaega tteonajianha..||



成长是一种减法。
减掉你的天真, 减掉你的梦想, 减掉你的幻觉, 减掉你的记忆, 减掉你的青春, 减掉你的岁月.......
最后, 一无所有,
除了....记忆的残片.


.:shuenyee:.

Opening

Word of the day: Heaven.
||heaven and hell, in a blink of an eye.||

It's holidays!
Wheeee =D
Its my time to finish those undone tasks and to start doing those am-going-to-do's task.
Last but not least, get those burden things out of my head.
At least, in this two weeks.

Finished two books in two days, amaze myself with such a short period in reading.
Hee.

Smile. =)

.:shuenyee:.

A So-called Doomed Day

Word of the day: past.
||Time flies.||

So fustrating.
Im sooo soo fustrating. T.T
Feels like dying at the same time.
Feels like hugging something to cry out loud. =(

And, today i did everything worstly.
Indeed, that was VERY WORST.
Ah, i guess there must be something really wrong with me.
Seriously, i really really dont like this feeling, its feels like.. something would be disappeared someday, somehow.

Having a really nice movie today.
It was 'Heaven Postman.'
It is staring by Hero Jaejoong and HyuJoo.
Quite a nice movie as overall and last but not least, it give me some lesson learnt.
Learn to be appreciative when you can, there is no regret when you turned back again.
Good movie, though.
And here is somes dialogue inside that i wanna share,

'but all those people believe easilly.'
'Believe what?'
'Our lies.The old man and the singer....they believed us.'
'It is all because they wanna believe it is true, they want to become all at ease.'


'Why you wanna do that? When lies can lighter his heart?'
'That man is much more stronger than we thought.Only weak people who need lie, to lighter their heart.'
'Only weak people who hide themselves in lies.Just because they couldnt accept and lie would soothe them.'

So, thats human.Feels kinda hypocrite? No, it wasn't.Lies would help pretty much when the truth couldnt save the situation.


.:shuenyee:.

Live like we're aliving

Word of the day: displacement.
||change of amount when you walked back and looked back.||

Oh yea, so proud to declare,

IM STILL ALIVE YOOO!

Mwahaha, miracle right? right right?
Look back for those three days which just past, its like faster than three hours.
And when i did the revision, it seems like more than three months. T.T
Everything gone after the exam papers got collected, IM DOOMED.

And so, there are still a couples of days to go, I needa keep myself alive! =D

Bonamana's MV is out!
Mwahaha, and everyone everyone didnt looked same anymore, especially hyukjae.
Tuekie is still continuing showing off his abs. =.=
Nevertheless, Yesung turned hotter and hotter, LOL.
But it was a bit incomplete without Kangin, Kibum and Hankyung who is still troubled by lawsuit.
I wonders whether they are planning to move into hindu's songs industry? haha, Miinah sounds so 'hindu'.
I wanna share those news with ELLAAAA =D

DBSK are sooooooooooooooo talented.
I likey them sooo sooo much regarding to their boongun drama.
Some of it are interesting while some are comedian nevertheless there are some sad's.

Lastly lastly, there is a column for myself to write out my feeling.
OH YEA, IM FEELING SO GOOD.
A nice phrase of sentence, i suppose?
But everything are still couldnt move on smoothly no matter how hard i try.
Hypnotize couldnt be the most effective way to me.
And it will never be.
I try to keep myself as busy as i can plus now is middle of my examination.
I try to put a lot a lot of things which can grab my attention.
No matter how hard i tried, there wouldnt be a success.
Why cant everything moved on as i wished?
By gone be by gone, everyone said that.
But why, still so hard?
Or am i putting too high of expectation to myself?
Thinking i can achieve it if i want to.
And now, the thruth is really dragged me down.
Pathetic ey?



.:shuenyee:.

Yunho, Uknow

I likey Uknow from DBSK!

But it's kinda a bit late for me to like him as they dont have group-activity lately due to SM's contract problem.





Thats all for today.Back to finish my homeworks.

.:shuenyee:.

I need time i need more and more time

Word of the day : insufficient.
||ack of time||

I have lots of lots of things to say.
But i dunno how to speak out. =.=
Ah, feels like bang-ing myself to the wall.

School exam is around the corner, but still i wasnt in the mood of study.
Doing a lot of homeworks and couldnt have time to do revision.
I told myself to study several time, but it ends up with
i) I slept. =.=
ii) My homeworks couldnt finish.

Guess this time im going to do revision like a mad woman already ><
Becauseeeee..

I DUNNO WHAT THE HECK ARE 'BALANCED EQUATION'.
then i have no idea what to start from. *sobs*
Im doomed.
If other planet would have more than 24 hours, i would like to berhijrah and live thereee...
Then it would be soooooo damn good.. T.T


.:shuenyee:.

Tagged by Syuenern

幸福小泡泡 =D
第一粒*POP* ♥ 希望你笑口常开
姓名 ♥　Shuenyee
昵名 ♥ shuyee, shushu or yee.
爱好 ♥ Hangout with friends and listen songs
这一生人最快乐的回忆 ♥ First time having a 'being-protected' feeling.
这一生人最难过的回忆 ♥ Got stabbed by someone.
想对自己说的话 ♥ Yo! IM FEELING GOOOD! forget those unpleasant things!　

幸福小泡泡 第二粒*POP* ♥ 希望你身体健康
谁点你 ♥ Syuenern
他的为人 ♥ laugh non stop =.=
他长得怎样 ♥ Damn fair. *ish, jealous*
他的身材 ♥ Tall.very tall.　
他的追求者 ♥ Hee, i have no idea.
他有多少个追求者 ♥ I think she is having lotss.haha.
他恨你吗 ♥ wont la, she soooo lovessss me =D
想告诉他 ♥ Syuenern ah, dont emo!

幸福小泡泡 第三粒*POP* ♥ 希望你幸福快乐
最爱的人（不准写家人）♥ All of my bestiessss.
交往过吗 ♥ Havent.
如果你的情人爱上其他人了 ♥ Lets break up, babeh.
有人喜欢你吗 ♥ How i know? haha
有人跟你告白吗 ♥ Was 'i love you' counted as a confession? lol
被人暗恋的感觉 ♥ Syiok die.

幸福小泡泡 第四粒*POP* ♥ 希望你一切顺利
你认为你是一个怎样的人 ♥ Very noisy when im in good mood, very quiet when im in a bad mood. Crap a lot when im hungry. hee.
你认为你是一个很受欢迎的人 ♥ Dunno? haha.
你认为你是天才 ♥ I dont wanna be a stupid la.
你认为你是一个可爱的人 ♥ I dont wanna be cute. =D
你认为你将来会有怎样的生活 ♥ Busy but meaningful.

被我点到的人 ♥
1. Eeteng
2.Huiteng
3.Jiayi
4.Leexiang
5.Clara
6.Wenhuey
7.Manthing
8.Eileen
9.Sherry
10.Lingsiew



[2-号的个性] ♥ 　Used to be a quiet ones.haha
[5号是你的谁] ♥　Bestie! =D
[9号有爱人吗] ♥　Mwahaha, tak tau. =.=
[6号喜欢谁] ♥　She argh.... that HIM lo.
[10号有情人吗] ♥　Maybe?
[1号喜欢运动吗] ♥　I think she did.
[3号的兴趣] ♥ um, emo.haha
[4号现在跟谁在一起] ♥ Family? o.o
[7号是怎样的人] ♥ Used to be a cheerful one, hope now also.
[2号认识3号吗] ♥　Not really la, i think.
[1号喜欢4号吗] ♥　Friend lo.
[8号的追求者] ♥　Hee, no idea.
[1号爱你吗] ♥　Aiya, she doesnt loves me one. T^T


--Not tagging anyone.--


.:shuenyee:.

我, 说

我是谁？谁是我？
到底， 我是谁？

越是鲜艳的花朵，越是危险。
越是美丽的东西，越是不耐。
越是珍贵的回忆，越是挥之不去。
越是想刻意地忘却，反弹回来的效应越是强烈。

心被淘空的感觉。
不堪一击，随时被撕裂。
空洞的眼神，眺望着远方，
仿佛在寻找那失去的影子。

我
用双手小心翼翼的捞起沙子
可它们却又顽皮的
从我手指缝间滑落地面
我赶紧把手给合上
沙子发起了不安的躁动
紧握的拳头
不但没有办法把沙子留在手里
就连手掌也被磨损了

宛如沙子
我无法将之握牢
反而伤痕累累
把自己无数次的反复推入无底深潭

曰：‘或许时间会渐渐的消失，但是所拥有的回忆，却是不会消失的。’
伤口或许严重
但终有愈合的一天。