一个月零五天的工作经验

Word of the day: Infinitize.

||To free from limitations of space, time, circumstance, etc cause to become INFINITE.||

今天,想分享我在一个月外加一个星期的工作经验.

过了N个月糜烂的日子以后, 终于呆不下去了. 在某个早晨, '爸, 我去面试找份工作吧?' 因为这句话, 我开始广泛的搜索邻近的百货商场有没有聘请的公告. 后来是给我找着了, 在一个规模不是很大的百货商场食物部门工作. 那家百货公司不算响当当, 可是我就是因为这样才选择到那儿工作. 嗯, 我奇怪? 也许, 哈哈.

那时我告诉自己, 这是第一份工, 别计较薪金;要求拿个经验. 所以那个时候胆粗粗的在求职栏上写了: 'promoter'. 面试时主管说, '那..如果排货的话可以吗?' 我当时不假思索就应了一句 ,'没问题.' 后来发现, 问题可大了. 哈哈, 可是来不及了. 排货这工作就如其名, 就只排货. -.- 从那窄小的货仓里拿出来的干粮, 罐头食品, 调味料等摆上架子. 个人认为这工作听起来不难, 做起来也不难. == 难在哪呢? 那就是那突然来袭的没事做. 因为没法子肆无忌惮的坐在地上, 惟有从前面走到后面, 再从后面走回来前面. 最后干脆拿起笔和纸写起韩文字来. 有时侯在看着同事在做事时就会蛮尴尬的, 因为大家好像都忙得不可开交, 而自己却没事做. =3= 那.... 没事做,第一件时就左看右看, 情况OKAY. 亮电话, 神速的按了键发了信息再收回裤袋里.

让人兴奋的时刻终于到来 ----- 休息时间! 真是让人左盼右盼呀, 都不知瞄了多少次的腕表, 斗鸡眼都快瞄出来了呢. 兴奋地走下楼梯........ 忽略了一个关键问题. 我....真的要吃马来餐吗?

个人是没有什么种族歧视的问题, 只是到马来档口用餐可是我人生中的初次尝试.

'Ahmoi mau makan ape?' 这是我进去档口的第一句话. 简单地点了食物后, 发现大家都像看外星人入侵地球一样地看着我. -.- 是年纪太小吗? 或是... 因为我是华人? 呵.不管, 吃饱再说. 后来的后来, 大家开始习惯了, 也少了赤裸裸的异样眼神; 也许他们烙印在脑里的是, 这人每天准时下午五时正就会来这儿用餐.

我承认我是一个比较被动的人. 你不说话, 我没那兴趣我也不会跟你说话. 你跟我说话, 我没兴趣我也只会简单的回应你. 所以, 前两个星期是沉默的, 或者说, 是非常简洁的回应. '嗯', '是', '好的'. 那时有一个叔叔, 一个很好相处的叔叔就在做工时叫我的名字. 当时是十分惊讶地回头, 可是很高兴. 他可是除了主管之外第一个知道我名字的人. (主管有时还会叫错呢) 后来就跟这叔叔关系很好. 他会习惯性地把我当小孩看, 很照顾我. 可能是因为本身工作地点离家很远, 所以会想念妻儿吧? 刚好我是长不大的小孩? 呵呵. 他会说着他的家人, 跟我聊我家人; 问我学校,成绩, 就像一个爸爸一样. 他的优点是什么? 很有感染力, 很会带动气氛.有他在的地方, 绝对少不了笑声. 与我一样是左徶子的他, 一样有着排东西有条不紊的习惯. 他常会说, 'eh budak ini, sampah letak sini jangan buang merata rata tempat la!' 他会教我怎样排东西, 告诉我从哪里拿货, 有时干脆取出来叫我排. 他知道我时常没事做, 会告诉我要作什么. 还有教我怎样偷懒.哈哈哈. 可是当我真的在偷懒时他会说, 'jom pi atas.' 接着铺天盖地的货就跑出来了.

如果说, 成钟因为一个金成圭就被折磨到发狂的话; 那么面对两个酷似金成圭性格的人, 我就是频临崩溃的界线了.

与大家熟识后, 比较黏着的就是一个身材很高眺, 瘦得跟尾指一样的哥哥. 我对他的第一印象是很斯文很内向很羞涩. 分析结果是: 结论下得太早了, 完全错误. 斯文? 错. 他在唱歌时就破功了. 内向? 很错. 他在乱替我取花名时就没了. 羞涩? 错错错. 他话很多. 福建华语他都行. 他最常说的一句就是, '不要'. =3= 整天都在说不要, 适合的情况不适合的情况都会冒出来. 结果我常说, '你这样会fail华语啦.' 他闲着没事就会和那叔叔一起作弄我. 叫我排这个排那个, 乱取花名,扭我耳朵. 可是他工作态度极佳, 很有策划头脑; 总是可以把即将摆上架子的货物安排得很整齐.

再来就是一个收银员姐姐. 她叫EMA, 是李东旭的戏迷. 因为喜欢指甲彩绘所以为自己弄了与NU'EST的成员REN一样设计的指甲彩绘.

偶然的情况下知道她也喜欢韩星而变的越来越熟,还与我一样每逢星期五会追原来是美男的重播呢!她很疼我, 在一次与她在柜台聊天时拿起巧可力棒说应该很好吃, 开玩笑地叫她送我. 原因是因为我快辞职了嘛. 结果她真的买下送我. 搞得我有点尴尬呢. 不过, 我很感动.

不过让人懊恼的莫过于那些叔叔阿姨的眼光了. 嗯, 我说啊, 你们别对我投来怜悯的眼神好吗? 因为这样一来我会慢慢地在缩小. 有些则是'你怎么这样看不开呀?!'的眼神. *清喉咙* 我是临时工作的!临时呀! -.- 也许衣着太随便, 有时还会被阿姨认成姐姐, 被小孩认成阿姨. 啊, 太伤心了. 可是他们的共同点在于: 都是马来人. -.- 现在是什么世界啊.

工作其间, 不免发生少许的乌龙事件.. 例如货物摆错架子之类的. 也许大家体谅我是初次工作,没责备或呼喝. 坦白说, 这工作会有些闷, 时常得自己找工作来度过整个下午. 薪金不算多, 休息时间不长, 好几次我对着镜子看着自己的倒影说了无数次的'忍'. 但是, 无可厚非, 这工作增广了我的人生经历, 明白了许多道理所以更加珍惜父母所付出的一切. 学会更爱我的父亲, 因为他为了家庭正在拼搏着. 开始了解这句话非字面上的意思. 学会爱我的母亲, 因为她任劳任怨地在持家, 当我的支柱. 仿佛有她, 问题就暂时解决了. 学会认真地看待自己的将来, 因为一份你热衷于的事业才是将来开心的保障.

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周二随笔

Word of the day: Hair.
||hair hair hair hair, endless complaints about hair.||

好久好久没有这样在部落格写些有的没的,
好久好久没有好好的呼吸着空气了,
好久好久没有静静的与自己来个对话了,
好久好久没有好好地在早上享受一杯浓郁的mocaccino了,
好久好久没有放慢脚步仔细的留意我周遭的一切,
好久好久没有放肆的合上眼睛大口地吐气,
好久好久没有拥抱那名叫"自由"的家伙了.

碍于时间的关系所以没拍下来,这是从网上载来的 =)

在偶然的情况下看到一群孩子在吹泡泡,呵呵真是天真无邪呀. 一堆一堆的泡泡从小小的圈圈口里冒出来, 满足的笑容渐渐的从小孩子的脸上淀开.有时侯在想, "满足"二词好像都会在小孩子身上找到,
吹泡泡,看着泡泡慢慢的飘着,就会很满足;
买了新玩具, 在同伴面前炫耀,就会很满足;
父亲临时加买快餐, 吃着与平时不同的料理, 就会很满足;

有时候, 懂得少,反而会去相信不可能有朝一日会变成可能;但是当你懂得越多, 就会明白有些事情是不会变成可能.. 所以这是"害怕"的源头吧? 因为知道挡不了,所以会害怕吧?

可是, "满足"是不一样的哦, 因为任何时候都可以感受到满足, 就在这里, 你的心态.
就像..... 我们还在大口大口地呼吸..
嗯, 满足.


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Just another day

Word of the day: Puropta.

|| PU-PU-PUU-PUUUU-PUROPTA. =/||

Look at my blog. *sigh*

Look at my blog. *shakes head*

My life now is like a mess, it's empty and lifeless.

I stayed at home for every single days.

I slept late at night and obviously i woke up late at every morning HAA.

I read, i sleep, i listen the songs.

On the other hand, it is a relax and enjoyable life though. =D

Therefore, i have plenty of time to do what i want and so i discovered a band which is pretty nice.

The name goes by NELL.

I like their songs and concept so much when i first listen to their songs. =D

The next thing that i want to do is search for their albums in Artist Galleries.

NELL - Drifting Away

Well, I don't really shed tears easily, especially towards song but this song makes me feel sad and yet it is so meaningful.

This song possesses strong emotions and undoubtedly makes it my favorite for all the time.

It is a waste because they aren't as famous as other rookie. =(

But they are good.

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Don't Act Foolish

Word of the day: Swag.
||Swaggerr! xD||

Not much to say, but just to share a song that i was listening lately.
It is a song named 'Dont act foolish' by a new artist ALi.
Haha, dont get me wrong, ALi is a 'she' but not a 'he'.
ALi is a korean but not a malay.

The song goes like this,
'Even when your heart hurts, don't cry.
Even when you want to die, don't die.
If they want to leave, let them go.
If you want to hold to them, don't.'

This song is coincide with my thinking, of not pushing things too hard.
Of course, people may think that it is a coward's action but it is opposite to me.
I strongly believe that life is about give and take.
You may gain as well as lose,
People may leave as well as come into your life.
There is a limit though, a time limit.
When the time comes, no matter how hard you try you have to let go.
WHY? just because that is not yours anymore.
Feeling is the hardest thing to control and of course human can't do that.
Let go is a wiser choice. =]

Don't ever think to commit suicide, there are still several ways to tell the person what they did were just so wrong.


'Farewell are like this, at first it really, really hurts.
the sky is falling and everything else crashes, its all chaos.
At time, you cant sleep because you are mad.'

Indeed, farewell are heart broking.
At the same time, it just simply means the person is important, so so so much important than you can ever imagine.
AHH. its hard to let go sometimes, but still it is not that hard if you really get over it.
HAAAAA.

Well, just a piece of crap though.
Here is it,

'Don't Act Foolish' by ALi and Yong Junhyung.







PEACE. =]

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雨

不想否认,我今天心情糟透了.
但是今天竟然下了一整天的雨, 心情好像随着那滴滴答答的小雨开朗起来. =D
哈哈,对了.请不要怀疑,本人是随着雨天而心情变漂亮的.
所以, 那些 '诬赖' 雨天是让人堆不起笑容的根据基本上是大错特错.

我总觉得与雨天有着说不清的熟悉.
雨天带给我说不出的安慰, 陌生既熟悉的味道.
几乎每次失意是都会下起雨, 对我来说那时一种独一无二的安慰.
一种, 超越了解的理解; 一种, 让我很舒服的..味道.
每年的生日, 都会碰上雨天.
而且还是刮大风, 雨下的稀哩哗啦的.

我爱上了这个味道, 涩涩的,凉凉的,
那仅仅属于 雨的味道.






.:shuenyee:.

Everything seems to be so wrong right now.
Everything seems to be so wrong right now.
Everything seems to be so wrong right now.

DAMN IT EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE SO WRONG.

saya emo sangat.

YET.

I still cant walk out.







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Untitled

I've always wanting to have a bestie, who can understand me without any single word.
I've always blaming that no one understand me, not even now.
I've always blaming others for hurted me and didnt even care what my thinking is.

You dont rely on me much, maybe you will think of me when you need me and Im not really playing an important role in your life
But

SEE, IM SUCH AN UNTRUSTWORTHY FRIEND.

Fcking Perfect - Pink

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fckin' perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead

So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game

It's enough
I've done all i can think of
Chased down all my demons
see you same

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fckin' perfect to me

The world stares while i swallow the fear
The only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, 'cause they're everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
String ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, fckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're fckin' perfect, to me
You're perfect
You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me


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从不属于我的

天上有许许多多的星星，但是我却找不到一颗，我永远不会是后备的。
混乱飘落的枫叶，就像我的情绪一样，被一波又一波的挑起。
我不需要同情，更不需要所谓的可怜。
不需路人的安慰，不需要多余的评论。
不需要那一闪而过的记得，不需要那同情。

星星一闪一闪，我把他们都尽收眼底。
在我以为会把他们永远的拥有时，忽略了，原来星星从来就没有像我宣告我对他们的持有权。
每天，不管哪一个夜里，星星从不迟到，绕着我，绕着黑夜，绕着月亮，绕着云朵。
但是，究竟哪一颗，是永远属于我一个人的?
究竟哪一颗，会永远分享只有我一个人的喜怒哀乐？
究竟哪一颗，会愿意让我成为永远的第一个？

我想，风把我的问题，加上答案给吹走了。
发现，自己好比在那无际的大海。
蓝色，我想是一种警报，撕裂了蓝天的温柔。
而我，开始沦陷，无法自拔。
也开始理解，原来解脱的方法，

很简单。

那就是


开始习惯。

Smile again.

Word of the day: awkward.
||AHHH~~ AWKWARD AWKWARD == ||

我真得很没用。T^T
Otoke? 感觉上，真的一无所处。
惨了啦。怎么办?
到哪里去找 “用处” 给自己？
所以，今天的我心情很糟。一直拼命地在找自己的用处。很可笑是不是？但是当你陷入其中的时候，就会知道那是一种悲哀。后来的后来，我好像找到了，那就是，用自己的不完美来衬托别人的完美。
结果，
我的天空今天非常灰。
然后，就开始发脾气伤害人了。
唉哉。





Smile again -- Ryeokwook (Super Junior)
这首歌，应该是最好的安慰。
淡淡的悲伤，轻轻的旋律。



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Untitled :)

Word of the day: Sharp.
||AHHH~~||

It seem to be quite a lonnnng while since my last update.Finally everything had already settle down. *PC problem, hand phone problem, PC problem , hand phone problem*

Training camp started so havta say goodbye to bed more more more early :(
This is the unwilling part of everyday.
But still when its the time, really will wake up automatically HOHOHO.
Had been friend with my so-called 'new instrument'.
For the first day of training camp,I dont think it likes me huuhuuuuuuuuuuu T^T
We was like, really really really cannot 'communicate' LOL.
But after a few days, i think we should be okay. :)

Captured at a very 'yeppo' morning.
A very good start at first day of training camp. teeehheee.



YONG JUNHYUNG! =D
JOKER JOKER JOKERRRRRRRRR!
Okay, i havta really admit i've been madly 'in love' with this batman's enemy.






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101010

Word of the day: Hello.
||anyeong hello hi||

Been very very very addicted to SHINee's Hello. =D
Maybe because of the 'brightness' that the song brought to me?
This song really brighten up my day, its like my world is dull before then suddenly because of this song my world turns to become very very colourful. *ahaha*
A lil bit exaggerate. LOL.

Today is a special day, its 101010.
And so, whats 101010 means to you?
Hee, for me its just a day in October and a day for me to discover 'Hello' and get addicted to its beat? hoho.
Today im having a gooood mood, and mostly is because of 'Hello'.

So, here is 'Hello' by SHINee.
Hope it can brighten up your day like it does to me. =)



Nighty night. =)


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What If

Word of the day: What if.
||What if everything rewind?||

Its so hard for me to explain and to say.

What If -- Super junior.
Let's Not -- Super junior.
Reset -- Super junior.

Addicted to old beats again, LOL.But its alright as long as they are nice beats. =)


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Turning, point.

Word of the day: shut up.
||just shut up shut up shut up.||

AAAAAHHHHH. IM FRIGGING SAD.
IM FRIGGING SAD.
Imma going to repeated again : IM SAD.
Dont guess why because its nothing that related to anyone.
Its just I MY ME MINE, problem. *this song title suddenly become so useful, LOL*

I am so sad, then i deleted half of my phone messages without having a look on it.
I am so sad, then i ate a big bowl of rice.
I am so sad, then i suddenly thought of viewing sunrise. -.- *okay,its impossible for night.*
So, i changed to 'I am so sad, then i thought of sitting on a bigg biggg field and watching starss starss.'
Its so awesome ey?
So it turns up with, IM STILL SO SAD.

Not into the mood of doing things, just feel like wanna laying on my bed, hug my bear and sleep.
But, reality always beyond the imagination, so i havta continue do homeworks etc etc.
No joke, but im really sad.

Okay, maybe a new topic will be rather refreshing.
Here is



*screaaaamm* JYJ! xD
They are coming to Malaysia soon, and this news is kinda unbelievable for me still.
Concert is held in 17th October, i hope someone can get into there and bring me videos HEE!
Been so admire for their talents especially Jaejoong because he can sing, dance,mc and act in drama so kinda have high expectation on their concert.

2nd 2nd would be BEAST!



Beast is back and 'Shock' became a pass tense, now its 'Mastermind'.
Kinda like Hyunseung and Yeosob's vocals, thumbs up for Yeosob's high pitching in 'Soom'.
Its just tooo awesome haha.
Clenching a tight fist is one of the nice songs of them, soothing and just simply nice.

3rd would be FT Island =D
They've come back with their new album 'Beautiful Journey'.



They turned to become sooo weird TT
'Love love love' is one of the song that i often heard hahaha
*Xiang sang, my classmates sang...*
But no doubt Hongki has a good vocal. =D

Thats all for today, those did really distract me from my pathetic thinking for quite awhile LOL.

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body
Now goodbye goodbye goodbye
Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away. - love love love, Ft Island.

Its Somebody.

Well, this guy is a very familiar one.

He named Hankyung or Hangeng.

'He is one of the Super junior guy la..'
'He is Super junior-M's leader lo..'
And thats all.
He never shine in a very bright way like others but he actually can sing well and dance well.

Hankyung was the first Chinese who went to Korea and succeed in debuting as a Korean group.
His courage is what i admire the most. =]
I watched a variety show which talked about story behinds Hankyung.
I never thought that he did experienced so much compared to same-aged human.
He did experienced what is the feeling of poor, having not much money after go to Korea but having some unsettle problem there before he entered Korea.
That problem could just make him say buhbye to Korea and his dream in a blink of eyes.
But the biggest problem was having not enough money to go back China even though he said buhbye to Korea.
Hankyung was a foreigner at that time due to citizen problem, what he could do is just put on a mask and went up stage for performance.
That performance was a brilliant one, but everyone started to notice this guy who stood in the middle, but wearing a mask.

His way of pursued his dream makes me respect him.
From China, he came to Korea all by himself.
Being so independent and mature in thinking are the personality of him that i admire the most.
Although now he debuted his solo album, but still, he is one of the person that i admire.


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最终的最终。

哈哈哈。
最终发现，自己才是陪伴自己的伴。

人鱼公主还不是化成泡沫，目送亲爱王子与公主开心地在一起？

睡美人还不是破不了魔咒，永远躺在玻璃棺材里？

灰姑娘在遇到王子以后，以为王子会带着玻璃鞋到处找她。
但是却忘了，王子在找不到灰姑娘后，爱上另一个的公主了。
结果，灰姑娘还是一个人，度过一生。

贝儿遇到野兽后，帮助野兽变回帅气的王子。
但是，王子始终是王子，贝儿还是被王子给丢弃了。

白雪公主咽下苹果后，就再也没醒来了。
因为，王子在赶去救公主的路途上爱上了化成公主的巫婆。
结果，狠心的巫婆把王子给杀了。

卖火材的小女孩还不是被冻死街边？

白玫瑰与红玫瑰最后爱上了同一个王子，数十年的姐妹之情瞬间幻灭。

世界上美好的结局让人眷恋，
但是美好的结局，如影如幻，捉不着；寻不获。
悲哀的结局，虽然让人心寒，但却现实得锐利。
就算是你信任的人，也有不信任你的时候。
因为，花朵也会凋谢，枯萎，然后
彻底的毁灭。


.:shuenyee:.

Rubik cube is mysterious, so do human mind.

Although i really hate to admit,
But still
I THINK I LOST MYSELF.
i couldnt find myself anymore.
I've tried in many ways, but still, i wasnt inside.
Its like i've gone out from my body, and watching what im doing.
Standing aside, silently, watching.
Telling myself that it wasnt my limit,
'Not here,please'.
Echoes filled my mind, it wasnt an answer at all,it is just
completely undefined.
Been tried to relaxed myself,but it was just an silly act.
You've not idea how lost am i.


.:shuenyee:.

Dear You,

Maybe it wasnt the time.
Just, maybe it wasnt a right time anymore to say such a thing.
But still, there is a wish from me that is

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY.

From Zai

.:shuenyee:.

Dear You.

Well, it might not be appropriate to do so, but im just suppress what i feel.
From the starting, i think its my brain problem, for having sucha idiotic decision.
Well, it getting more and more wrong after that.
Because i saw changes, i sense changes and it really makes me upset, seriously. *um, i think?*
You know what?
I hate sudden changes, i hate surprise.

I dont like the awkward atmosphere, i really really do mean so.
When the argument stopped, silences begun. When the silence begun, it separated everything in a very clear way.
And so, when the awkward situation started, everything ruin in a blink of an eye.

I wanna voice out, but i gulped it back.
Because there is useless.
It is so damn frustrating to say that everything are useless.
I couldn't make it right at all. =/

Thought of several reasons to be optimistic,
But there are millions of reasons to be pessimistic.
And so, it turns to be pessimistic again.=.=

It is soo damn frustrating T.T

Not wanting to seein you again.
But it always has reverse effect. =.=

So so frustrating. =/


Well, *exhale,calm down*

Just pretend, then we never were.


.:shuenyee:.

减法

Word of the day: you're man.
||I’m your man I’m your man geudaeyeo ttaradatta oneuldo
geudaega tteonajianha..||



成长是一种减法。
减掉你的天真, 减掉你的梦想, 减掉你的幻觉, 减掉你的记忆, 减掉你的青春, 减掉你的岁月.......
最后, 一无所有,
除了....记忆的残片.


.:shuenyee:.